I had my final Development weigh in on Wednesday night and had lost 2lbs. It could have been more if I'd stuck to abstinence but, as I am totally happy with where I am now, I didn't mind at all. Actually I was in a very celebratory frame of mind and feel fantastic. I wanted one day to revel in the fact that I HAVE HIT MY TARGET!!! I know the ticker says 5lbs to go but, when I set the target, I had no idea what I would look like or fit into at this weight so set it at the far end of what I might need to lose. I always caveated the target by saying that it would probably be somewhere between 8 and 9 stones to lose and I would know when I got there. The size 12 thing was more important to me than the lbs and ounces.Now I'm there, I DO know and I feel great. In fact, I may be getting a bit small for some 12's....!
Anyway, after my class I KNEW I was going to eat at home and I did. Some toast, some crackers, a bowl of noodles and a bowl of icecream. Quite a lot really, but not high fat, not fried not (apart from the icecream) sweet stuff or processed and, really, not too bad. I don't even feel guilty about it. It was what I wanted to do.
I was a bit worried about the next day and whether I would want to carry it on but that didn't happen. Thursday morning, I was up with the lark for my personal training at 7am and, although I did have a small carb "hangover", did fine in training and had a perfectly abstinent 4 pack day! Weird. There were several opportunities to cheat at work - a choc cake, sandwiches etc etc, I could have had a milky coffee. I sort of tested myself on these things and found that I just wasn't interested. Even when D came home last night (absolutely knackered poor love) I was happy to cook him a nice supper (steak and onions with mash), make milky coffees etc and go the pub and not a flicker of desire to cheat. This is huge. I can control things ( at least a little bit).
Today, I'm working from home (well, I will be when I'm caught up on the blogs!!) and feel strong for another day. I'm sticking to the packs until I start RTM on Monday evening so Tuesday will be my first RTM day. I already know what my first permitted meal will be - smoked mackerel, mmmmm so tasty!
So - hope you're all well and happy and sticking to your regimes. We CAN do it!!!
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Yay!
I was wondering where you were and how it had gone...
I'm off work today as well - heading down to Dorset after visiting the gym.
Good luck with the RtM journey.
Sandra
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CONGRATULATIONS!!! YOU GOT THERE!!! YOU HIT YOUR TARGET.
Am currently in an internet cafe so limited with time (and ability to cheer!) so must do it silently but am still sitting here with a massive grin on my face!
Wish I could give you huge hug in person.
Just thrilled for you and you sound so level headed! Amazing. I am watching and learning!
Lots of love, big kiss. So proud of you.
Mrs L xxxxxxxxxxxx
Wow Lesley, I'm still just shocked and awed at all that you've accomplished! You've lost over 120 pounds! Amazing!
Well done Lesley. I hope you feel proud of your acheivements so far.
I hope you do well in management, good luck.
Congratulations on hitting your target! I agree with you on not really knowing what your target it until you get there. I can not remember ever wearing less than a size 16 so I have no idea whether I want to be a size 12 or a size 10 - I will not know till I get there!
You also sound as if you are in a very good 'mental-place' to start your RTM.
Enjoy that Mackrel!!
Liz
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Relish every moment my friend! Huge grins for you & hope your head gets how far you have come! SOOOOO well done; you really do look incredble! Fit & healthy! You're bound to find food scary but hang in there; as you say you are controlling it, stopping (rather than previous what the heck, I've had this may as well polish off the lot! & doing excercise which is what "normal" people do. Hard though to find the measure & we'll all take some time to muddle through! But so, so, so well done! I'm so proud of you!
I am slowly working my way through all your old posts but starting with the newest ones first (there must be a method to my madness). Well done on reaching your target. You are an inspiration to people like me who are starting out (well coming to the end of my 5th week).
I have absolutely no idea whether I will be happy at 10 stone or whether that would make me a size 12 or 14, I guess/hope, like you, I will know when I am at the right place.
You look radiant and beuatiful and your attitude is something I hope I can achieve by the time I reach the end of Foundation. I have to admit reading about your journey and others like you inspires me and motivates me much more than my own weekly meetings.
Good luck with management and thank you so much for your kind words of support and encouragement on my blog.
big cyber hug.
x
Congratulations! It's all already been said but I am so pleased and proud for you - you look amazing and you've been a real example. I expect to see you featured in a future LL magazine as an exemplary case study.
love
Peridot x
C O N G R A T U L A T I O N S !
You must be very proud of yourself. I hope you enjoy being at goal and enjoy eating a little bit more and feeling nice and thin.
I have written a little piece on my blog about you, give it a read some time.
John.
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