Midsummer evening

Midsummer evening

Friday, 13 January 2012

Looking back to see where I'm going.

Well, the last few days have been pretty good.  I have definitely had a different mindset regarding diet and exercise to the one prevailing for the last few months.  I used to say that I've been in a "fog" and I think the fog re-appeared for a while there becaues that's what it feels like now.

I can see clearly now the rain has gone...  But what caused the rain I have no idea.  I was happy and enjoying life, just floundered into a dieting and exercise fog and couldn't seem to get out of it.

But I 'm out of it now so that's a good thing and something to celebrate and enjoy.

I was looking through LOTS of photos the other day in an idle hour.  And got to looking at my slimmest pics.  It's strange that there really aren't that many of me when I was at my thinnest.  I suppose I wasn't there for THAT long but it would still be 6-8 months.  Surely I should have been so excited about being, get this, a SIZE 10-12, that I should have had daily photos taken to record the fact.

Evidently not. Maybe I was complacent and thought that, having done the unimaginable and lost 9 stone, there is no way I would put any back on??! Tee hee. Man that was dumb if that's what I thought. Now I know that keeping it off is waaaay harder than actually losing.

Here are few of my favourites from the late summer of 2007:

This is me at Calver Bridge with Shelagh and probably most accurately records the weight I'd like to be NOW, please..... 


Me with my still skinny mates.  Looking even slimmer than them for one month only!  I do remember though that I was just about still on the LL plan that night so I didn't eat or drink anything other than water.  Danced like a mad thing, had a good night but didn't really get into it and felt guilty for having ONE onion bhaji as I left to walk home!!


Oooh, look at that skinny neck and boney back - love it!!


I wasn't drinking that night either.  Which probably explains the clear skin and shining eyes...whoops, perhaps drink not ALL it's cracked up to be...


We had been picking sloes, hence the carrier bag!


Me with my (former) friend Shelley (the nasty piece of work who publicly unfriended me on FB a little while ago!) on the day I realised I had lost enough weight on LL!  Looking back, I am happy with everything apart from not having any bust left at this point.  I think I was trying to achieve slim legs hence went for an extra half stone off.  But I know now that I will NEVER have slim legs so I may as well enjoy having a bust instead!


Anyway, all this wandering through the archives has reignited my desire to be properly slim again and showed me that I am kidding myself to say I'm happy with where I am now weightwise.  I'm happy with my life and myself but I DO want to lose 2 if not 3 stone.  And above is my inspiration!

1 comment:

Peridot said...

Argh PLEASE don't say that keeping it off is even harder than losing it! Given how extremely frustratingly difficult it is for me to lose it...

You do look great in these pics, it's true.

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