Just a quick post as I've only just got back from the football and finished talking to D and want to go to bed! Had a good night tonight - Jim is excited about the weekend so that got me looking forward to it. Had to watch him eating pizza and garlic bread with cheese and drinking lager which wasn't so good but, on balance, a fun evening! The football wasn't exactly thrilling - a nil nil bore draw. Still, we didn't lose so no harm done.
Went swimming at lunchtime and managed a good 50 lengths in less than 30 minutes so not bad.
I'm a bit subdued as the weight is not coming off very fast this week. Looking back I realise the same thing happened 4 weeks ago so it must be TOTM but depressing nonetheless. Hopefully I'll get 3 or 4lbs off anyway and all will not be lost. It just seems harsh this week of all weeks when I've been so good at the wedding and then had to watch Jim eating a pizza as well tonight.
Actually one nice thing did happen today - I was in a meeting with the Chief Executive of the Council where I work this morning and before we started he looked up said "So, how much weight have you lost then?" and all the other blokes there joined in saying how noticeable it was etc etc. Pretty pleasant as they're all quite senior and didn't have to say anything - in fact, in today's PC world, they're probably wondering whether they should say anything which indicates that they have noticed my figure at all! The Chief Exec is possibly the least PC bloke around though and I really appreciated the compliment as he never says anything he doesn't want to say or doesn't mean.
Tuesday, 6 March 2007
Monday, 5 March 2007
Day 53 -48
Back to work again. Was in mega early (7am again) and got a fair bit done before my appointment at the Dental hospital. yeuch! Not too bad this time although they have confirmed that I have to have an extraction....aaaargh! How much do teeth weigh??
On my way back to the office I stopped into Meadowhell to got to Debenhams and Monsoon looking for an evening dress for the dinner dance I'm going to on Saturday. In Debenhams I picked up a stack of 20s and was excited to discover that they were all too big! So back for the 18s and one of them was too big! I ended up buying a pretty bias cut black dress with cream embroidery and a cream sparkly stole (in size 18 - yay!). Very girly.
All the shops were full of identical 50's style high waisted full skirted dress which look absolutely terrible on me - I look like a baby hippo in a dress! It's a shame tho' 'cos the fabircs are gorgeous this season - pretty, light, interesting, not all in black. I'm pretty sure that that style wouldn't suit me however slim I got though - so I didn't feel depressed! I think it's because the full skirt falls from above the waist so you don't see that I have a waist and then flares outwards making my hips look even bigger and to make matters worse they tend to be just below the knee in length, which is the fattest part of my leg so really, really unflattering! I have stuck with an old favourite look and pray that dresses for curvy girls come back in soon!
Anyway, an evening in with nothing decent on telly so I'll be on ebay tonight. Hope this gets better!
Diet fine - no cheating and no feeling deprived. Haven't done any exercise apart from shopping today (athough that was pretty arduous). Must go swimming tomorrow.
On my way back to the office I stopped into Meadowhell to got to Debenhams and Monsoon looking for an evening dress for the dinner dance I'm going to on Saturday. In Debenhams I picked up a stack of 20s and was excited to discover that they were all too big! So back for the 18s and one of them was too big! I ended up buying a pretty bias cut black dress with cream embroidery and a cream sparkly stole (in size 18 - yay!). Very girly.
All the shops were full of identical 50's style high waisted full skirted dress which look absolutely terrible on me - I look like a baby hippo in a dress! It's a shame tho' 'cos the fabircs are gorgeous this season - pretty, light, interesting, not all in black. I'm pretty sure that that style wouldn't suit me however slim I got though - so I didn't feel depressed! I think it's because the full skirt falls from above the waist so you don't see that I have a waist and then flares outwards making my hips look even bigger and to make matters worse they tend to be just below the knee in length, which is the fattest part of my leg so really, really unflattering! I have stuck with an old favourite look and pray that dresses for curvy girls come back in soon!
Anyway, an evening in with nothing decent on telly so I'll be on ebay tonight. Hope this gets better!
Diet fine - no cheating and no feeling deprived. Haven't done any exercise apart from shopping today (athough that was pretty arduous). Must go swimming tomorrow.
Sunday, 4 March 2007
Day 52 -49
God - I've just noticed that I'm over half way through Foundation! Wow, that has flown by. I'm sure this blog has been a major factor in my doing so well. That and all the support I have received from the various people who check in and leave comments - it is really appreciated and feels great to know that there are people out there who know what you're going through - both good and bad.
Had my french lesson early this morning and it went very well. She really is a nice woman and I seem to be making progress even in the first 3 weeks - it must be the fact that I'm doing my homework for the first time ever! After I got back, I've had another frustrating day on ebay - it just takes so long listing anything. I was hoping that it would get quicker but it doesn't seem to. Maybe the server is slow on a Sunday or something as I keep getting stuck and not being able to progress to the next page....grrrr
Still, the good news is that I have had another look through my wardrobe and found loads of things I will never wear and several things in size 18 (!) that I can comfortably fit into!!! It has been a long time since I wore an 18. It is bliss throwing away and (trying to) sell my fat clothes. After I slim out of these 18's I will have to buy new stuff as I have hardly any 16's. I know I will be able to beg a few things off friends but it'll be new gear from then on... bring it on!
The weather is crap so haven't been out for a walk yet. I think doggie will have to settle for a quick scuttle round the block at this rate. Maybe I'll force myself out for a jog if it clears up after dark. The dog hates walking in the dark so I won't feel guilty.
Oh well, perfect weather for ebaying...
Had my french lesson early this morning and it went very well. She really is a nice woman and I seem to be making progress even in the first 3 weeks - it must be the fact that I'm doing my homework for the first time ever! After I got back, I've had another frustrating day on ebay - it just takes so long listing anything. I was hoping that it would get quicker but it doesn't seem to. Maybe the server is slow on a Sunday or something as I keep getting stuck and not being able to progress to the next page....grrrr
Still, the good news is that I have had another look through my wardrobe and found loads of things I will never wear and several things in size 18 (!) that I can comfortably fit into!!! It has been a long time since I wore an 18. It is bliss throwing away and (trying to) sell my fat clothes. After I slim out of these 18's I will have to buy new stuff as I have hardly any 16's. I know I will be able to beg a few things off friends but it'll be new gear from then on... bring it on!
The weather is crap so haven't been out for a walk yet. I think doggie will have to settle for a quick scuttle round the block at this rate. Maybe I'll force myself out for a jog if it clears up after dark. The dog hates walking in the dark so I won't feel guilty.
Oh well, perfect weather for ebaying...
Day 51 -50
Had a quiet day over at my folks' place near Lincoln. Their friends, Ian and Jose were over for the weekend and they live in France so I wanted to pick their brains about what it's like over there for an expat. It was really good to see them as I haven't seen them for years although Mum and Dad keep me in touch with what they and their children are up to.
I got some usefuly tips about properties from Ian and Jose and had a lovely walk with Jose round the village. It's always good to get back to Lincolnshire and see the open skies of my home county. I love the hills here but I suppose home always speaks to you doesn't it?
Mum and Dad were suitably impressed by the weightloss and they and the landlady at the pub said you could see I had lost weight even since I was last there about 3 weeks before! She's mad about dogs too so was making a fuss about Shelagh and her smart hair cut....more daft dog stuff...
I was happy to help Mum with the cooking again and didn't eat, so another temptation bypassed. I was also really happy with a new outfit I have put together - I new top from M & S, my tweedy skirt, long brown boots and a brown leather belt around my hips - very stylish! I feel so much slimmer and that I can take on new looks.
Anyway, not much to report - we stayed in in the evening and watched MOTD...very pleasant but not exciting!
I got some usefuly tips about properties from Ian and Jose and had a lovely walk with Jose round the village. It's always good to get back to Lincolnshire and see the open skies of my home county. I love the hills here but I suppose home always speaks to you doesn't it?
Mum and Dad were suitably impressed by the weightloss and they and the landlady at the pub said you could see I had lost weight even since I was last there about 3 weeks before! She's mad about dogs too so was making a fuss about Shelagh and her smart hair cut....more daft dog stuff...
I was happy to help Mum with the cooking again and didn't eat, so another temptation bypassed. I was also really happy with a new outfit I have put together - I new top from M & S, my tweedy skirt, long brown boots and a brown leather belt around my hips - very stylish! I feel so much slimmer and that I can take on new looks.
Anyway, not much to report - we stayed in in the evening and watched MOTD...very pleasant but not exciting!
Saturday, 3 March 2007
Day 50 - the wedding
Well, it was a beautiful wedding. really happy and lovely. Loads of friinds and family - no fights, gorgeous weather, lovely setting and nice food and drink. Well, I'm told that the food and drink were good although I didn't taste any of it! It certainly smelled good.
I had half a glass of champagne to toast the bride and groom but apart from that stuck to my soup and bar and water. I got the staff to heat up my soup and they brought it out to the table in a posh bowl and it seemed much better that way! It seemed to go on forever compared to drinking it out of a mug!
I had a really good time too - did a fair bit of dancing and obviously took loads of photos. I think I've established that I'm definitely a nature and scenery photographer - people are a pain, they keep moving and shutting their eyes!! I've got loads of good shots but I'm definitely no professional wedding photographer! Oh well, if they had really cared about polished photos they would have paid for a photographer. I'll do my best to put together a good album and some of my candid shots are great.
It wasn't too bad not eating and drinking. Loads of people made a real fuss about my weight loss and admired my willpower so that made it easier. Taking photos did help though as it kept me busy. It was probably harder being without D than not eating to be honest. Also, I'm seriously wondering whether I'll drink much ever again - I don;t seem to miss it much and I love feeling good in the morning!
Anyway - I did it so that's all that matters. I'm a bit knackered this morning due to the late night but I'm off to my parents later to talk to some friend of theirs who are living in France. I want to pick their brains about living over there.
Friday, 2 March 2007
Day 50 -51
Well, I've got a Wedding to go to today and the bloody bride has stuck me with the job of official photographer! When I agreed I thought there would be another guy doing it too and that I would just be doing the candid shots of the guests etc. Now it turns out that he can't make it and I am it! Talk about pressure. So, in honour of the wedding I went out for a walk along the river bank this morning and tried a few new things to warm up. A bit arty eh?
It is a gorgeous sunny and crisp day. She must be the luckiest bride ever as it has been miserable and rainy here for days. That should help my job too. Actually having something to do will probably help me as well. D is away so I'll be single for the day which is fine but can get a bit tricky when all your mates are in couples. Also, I'm not eating or drinking so taking photos might help keep me busy and away from temptation.
It really is going to be a massive do though - practically everyone from the Valley is going so regardless of diet and not drinking I'm determined to have a great time. I'll post tomorrow and hopefully have a nice shot of me in my glad rags and tales of virtuous pleasure (if there can be such a thing!).
Thursday, 1 March 2007
Day 49 -52 (half way through Foundation) - Weigh-in
Well as you can see (just!) I've lost another 6lbs this week taking me to 3 stone and 4lbs in total. I'm very pleased that the progress is remaining constant. It's a real shot in the arm each week and is encouraging me not to cheat and to exercise as well. I'm sure that's partly what is causing me to do so well.
I was up at crack of dawn to get to a course in Leeds but luckily I found I could leave mid morning rather than staying 'til the bitter end so I was working from home by 2pm. Got a fair bit done (including my french homework on the train) then took the dog for a long and muddy walk.
Then off to class to be weighed. Once again, we didn't have a DVD but chatted about our core beliefs about ourselves, both positive and negative and how we can change these if they are having a negative effect on ourselves. I think I need to do some work on this. My main negative idea about myself is that I'm a procrastinator and that stems from my feeling that I won't be able to do a task - thus I keep putting it off. I need to work out why I think I won't be able to do these things as generally, once I force myself to knuckle down, I do them fine.
Delay is more of a worry than not doing the task well. Often, if I did it promptly but not brilliantly I would have a better result! So that is my homework for this week - work on ways to stop procrastinating and try to work out why I do it in the first place. I'll read the book and do the exercise for this week too which is on this topic I think.
The idea behind this is that if you have a belief about yourself it may cause you to act in a certain way (and overeat potentially) and in order to stop the behaviour (eg. the overeating) you need to address the belief and the possibly faulty reasoning behind it. She drew the concept out as a Thought-Feeling-Behaviour traingle with each element affecting the others. So, if you identify a problem behaviour you then have to identify the corresponding thought and feeling and make changes there. It works for minor things like a habit of snacking right up to major lifestyle factors.
Hope you're all doing well and sticking to it - we are all going to triumph - I've decided!
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