Monday, 4 February 2013
First Monday is an (optional) WI day for me. Optional in that I choose, occasionally, to WI on Tuesday instead given Monday's fiendish proximity to the weekend. This weekend I have a dilemma in that I did step on the scales this morning and have had a STS. BUT, I want to keep the pressure on and demand a bit more of myself so that I actually make progress rather than just treading water. I am hoping that I can do a bit better tomorrow morning which will give me a harder target for next week. So, my conclusion is that I'm going to take a banker of a STS this morning but try again tomorrow for a drop.
My other dilemma is to do with clothes. As I have mentioned, I have a fair few clothes which I will fit into soon and just enough to clothe me in the meantime for my usual activities of pub going, football, dog walking, work and dancing. But, where I'm sadly lacking is going out clothes. Nights out in Sheffield or beyond. Trouble is, even when i it into stuff in my wardrobe, I have to accept that it is sadly out of date and doing me no favours in the fashion stakes.
What has brought this to a head is Saturday night's extravaganza in Sheffield for Tom's (a pal of Richard's) 40th birthday. Last time Rich and I went out with Tom and his new (much younger) girlfriend Claire, I wore jeans, boots and a evening-y top. I felt totally overdressed and frumpy and commented on the fact that ALL the women out in town were wearing party dresses. So this time, for a bigger do with more people, I tried a bit harder. I was going to wear the bodycon style dress I wore to a few pre Christmas parties which fits fine. Trouble is, when I put it on, it felt too formal for a night out in town. A bit too dinner dance-y. A bit too long (it is just above knee length. So, I tried some black 3/4 length evening trousers I had from a few years ago which I was pleased to discover fitted me. The previous evening top also felt too mumsy and I was just plain bored of wearing it as it's been pretty much my only option since last spring! So, I dug out an old sleeveless Next top.
I know that, objectively, the outfit looked nice on me, suited me and fitted fine but it is dated and out of style. I have seen that Next top or others in the same material everywhere and it is just not what the girls are wearing "out there".
They are ALL wearing dreses. Mostly short dresses. Mostly of that short, ballerina flaring out style. Even the ones who do not have the legs for short dresses. I do NOT have the legs for a short dress (especially not a flarey out one) and just cannot bring myself to wear one anyway. I have tried but look like a hippo in that particular style with my broad ahoulders and chunky thighs!! I would feel silly and try to make it a rule never to wear something unflattering just because it is in fashion. The legging under a dress thing seems to have passed too (is this right?).
I am vain enough to want to look nice AND reasonably current but also tight enough not to want to fork out money for clothes which hopefully won't fit me in a few months time. Aaaaargh!
So, the dilemma is, do I buy something party-ish for the next couple of months or do I suck it up until the summer when my options open out a bit?? I think, having typed this out, that I'm sufficiently miserable with my choices to buy something party-ish to tide myself over. I'm skint, yes, but as long as I don't spend too much, I deserve something nice to wear!
So - any recommendations??