Wednesday, 28 November 2007
Yay - I'm posting again!!
Well, the weather hasn't been great for walks so haven't taken many piccies recently but there was a couple of beautiful frosty autumnal mornings a few weeks ago and I actually remembered to take my camera with me to work and stop on the way as I've been meaning to do for ages. So - these are a few pictures taken on my journey to drop the dog off at the farmplace she stays at while I'm at work and then driving over the moors to Rotherham. Not bad eh?? In fairness, it's not usually that gorgeous but still beats the tube from memory!!
So, how am I getting on in the eternal battle to not go back to being a fatty?? It's been hard but I'm not stressing about it as I did a while back. Thankfully, I haven't had a repeat of the depressed, lonely weekend I suffered through a couple of months ago, when I felt fat and dreadful and ate my way through it. I still have my moments of feeling fat but can now put it in perspective and (usually) avoidthe failure-eating trick.
I HAVE gained weight though. Just over a stone at last count. I'm still in size 12's but some are too tight to wear and others are snugger than they were at my slimmest. I'm writing down what I eat this week and my personal trainer is going to go through it with me and come up with an eating plan for me to follow (probably all seeds and stuf - sigh...). At the moment, I'm just tyring to avoid eating for the sake of it and "bad" food. Generally it's reasonably sucessful. I do have to get back to LL RTM class though as it has been 3 weeks now!! I'm sure that would help but I avoided it as I wasn't sure how I would face another gain! Trouble is, I didn't go when I was pretty sure I would have had a loss so didn't get that affirmation and am now scared of seeing a gain....daft eh?
All I know is that my clothes are tighter but still fit alright and I haven't given up trying or exercising so all is not lost. In fact, all is pretty damngood. I have bought nice clothes inclduing knee length high heel boots which I LOVE and I'm just enjoying life. Trying to be vigilant but enjoying life. I'm not going to make things worse by panicking about a few lbs!!
I hear D at the door so am going to go downstairs and be sociable now but will drop in again soon, honest!! Keep well everybody we CAN do it!!!