So, I duly stepped on the scales Monday morning, telling myself that it was going to be baaaaaad news and that "Knowledge is Power" etc etc And then saw that I had only put on 2lbs!! Couldn't believe it. I have not totally given up on exercise by any means, still been to personal training twice a week and played loads of golf and done lots of dog walking. But I have not been swimming, running, to the gym or out on my mountain bike!
And, on top of that, I've been eating pretty much what I want including cappucinos most mornings, the odd biscuit or cakes at work, takeaways after football, wine and beers at home while watching games, copious amounts of cider while in town watching the England games etc etc
But, only 2 lbs gained. It feels as though I have LOST 2lbs I'm so pleased with that. What it tells me is that I can, for limited periods, just forget about food. Although I have been off-piste, I haven't gone mad or overeaten badly. I've just relaxed for a few weeks and then reined it in.
So, this week has been good for exercise so far. Swimming on Monday and Tuesday, long walk Monday evening and golf this morning. My personal trainer is back tomorrow morning and I'm playing golf again on Friday. Foodwise I've been fine, lots of sushi and salad and fewer treats and one of the 2 lbs has gone already.
So, I'm lucky but also pleased that I seem to have REALLY changed my behaviour longterm.
One warning note though was that on my final weekend before getting on the scales, I felt a bit empty emotionally. You know, a little sad and worried and I also found myself eating to fill that hole. I noticed this because I had not done it for so long. I stopped it but the urge to eat for emotional reasons is still there, weaker and less frequent but still there!!
I need to address the emotional reasons too but that is a tale for another day..... Not really sad now, pleased with myself if anything but all is not quite right with me, just need to work out how to put it right.