Moving day!

They moved!!  And not just a poxy 0.4 lbs!  2 whole lbs down this morning and I finally feel like I'm on the way again after my body's weird, little 3 weeks blip.

So, that's that.  I was right, as long as I keep sticking to the regime I will drop weight.  It was no biggie but I'm still proud of myself for not giving in to temptation and straying from the plan.  It means that the plan is bedding in nicely.

I was chatting with a pal at the football last night - a bloke but one who has dieted in the past (WW) and understands the whole dieting schtick.  He asked me what my goal is and I spoke it out loud for the first time - to drop 5 stone this year!  I have thought it, written it but certainly not shared it with anyone in real life.  Not even Richard.  I don't know why not but it seemed like a big thing and maybe unmanageable, like I shouldn't aspire to something so ambitious.

That doesn't make sense.  When I started Lighter Life I made no secret of the fact that I wanted to ditch all my lard and get bona fide slim.  I wasn't sure how much weight that would actually be as I had never been slim in adult life but I knew it would be a LOT!  I used the pressure to motivate my chimp and get her onside.  It helped a lot and made it more real, achievable somehow.

So I'm not going to be shy about it now - I'm going to ditch the lard this year!

I've been musing on what my motivation for this quest is this time round.  Last time it was pain - I was seeking the absence of the pain caused by being fat.  I had been told for years that, if I would only become slim, everything would be alright.  Ha!  By that time, things had become so bad in my marriage that dieting seemed like the only solution.

But this time, I'm happy and loved (and also not as fat).  What drives me this time?

Health.  I'm serious about being healthy as I grow older. I suppose, as you get older, thoughts of your retirement and old age become more frequent and more pointed.  I'm also childless.  I want to make sure that Richard and I stay healthy for each other.  Dropping weight and becoming fit and healthy is one of the best ways to lower one's risk of heart disease, stroke, cancer and even dementia.  I want to be able to go walking, dancing, gardening, golfing, football watching long into my old age so I need to do to hard work now for that future.

Pride.  I don't want to be beaten by this thing.  I shed 9 stone in 2007 and had re-gained 2/3rds of that over the last 7 years.  I am still "up" and want to make sure that I stay that way.  As it stands, I weighed more that my present weight for 15 or so years prior to 2007 and less than it for the last 7.  I can make sure that I reverse that statistic if I keep the pressure on and this is my best chance.

Vestigial girliness.  I want to look nice in (and out of) clothes.  I'm still young enough and don't want that side of my life to be over, to be stuck in frumpy, fat lady clothes, looking older than my years.

So, enough navel gazing for now.  Back to diet and exercise chat soon!